Week 3 (lost count of the days...)

First goal: lose 5% of my current body weight
Overall goal: lose 40 pounds
Current status: lost 5.7 pounds

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Well, weigh-in #3 was this morning....and I've realized eating (for me) is a little like shopping.

Back in the day, if I went shopping and wanted something, I'd get it. Didn't matter if I had the money or how much it was. Now, true, I never just went and spent willy-nilly on a pair of Manolo's or anything (yes, I saw SATC2 last night), but a little spent often enough adds up. And all that adding resulted in me having credit card issues. Well, basically I owed. A lot.

Over time, I realized that I was just buying to make myself happy. I wasn't happy with a lot of what was going on in my life, and maybe subconsciously, I thought that a new pair of shoes or a new shirt would make me happy. And they did - but only temporarily... Then I'd want to shop some more.

But when I realized I CAN be happy and have it NOTHING to do with shopping, I started shopping in a more discriminate fashion. Did I really NEED that rainbow scarf or those green Crocs? NO. Did I want them? YES. BUT instead of just BUYING them right then, I learned to wait. If I was still thinking about them tomorrow or next week, then I really DID want them and would choose to spend my money on them.

That has lead me to be able pay down a lot of my debt and to really truly enjoy when I DO actually spend money on myself...

I'm learning the same can be said for food.

In the past 3 weeks, I've gone from being anxious about every meal to realizing that I have options. I've stopped to think about what I really want to eat, and made healthier choices.

The other night, I went out to the diner and was faced with getting something fun like chicken fingers and fries or even a veggie burger and fries. That's what my first instinct told me to get... But I stopped and thought about my options. An egg white omelet with spinach, tomatoes and feta cheese is just as filling but A) way healthier and B) waaaay less points. And who doesn't love breakfast for dinner?? I LOVE BREAKFAST FOR DINNER!!

Point is, I was able to realize that the fun and happiness I'd get from bad food would last only a short while but the fat and badness I get from it would last way longer on my arse and anywhere else it landed - sort of like my credit card bills!! So, if I'm going to "charge" the points, why not owe less?? It turns out I was JUST as happy and didn't "pay" as much!!

WIN WIN!

I love shopping and eating. And I admit there ARE still times I want to both spend money and eat willy-nilly, but will it make me happy long run? No.

Besides, I love loosing weight even more! WOOT!

Day 11

First goal: lose 5% of my current body weight
Overall goal: lose 40 pounds
Current status: not sure

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Well, yesterday, my weight dropped below that magic number I never want to be over again. This morning, it was back over it. Now I know I can't micro manage my weight loss. Its only natural to bobble a pound or two given even the time of day...

BUT it was also a wake up call.

You see, this weekend, I was so busy doing stuff at home and running around here and there, that I didn't eat much. And so obviously, when I weighed myself with NO food in me (even though it wasn't on purpose), I seemed to have lost a lot. But when I ate - even eating breakfast today - I gained. A lot? No. And I'm still below my last official weigh-in from last week, so I'm happy.

Basically, this reminds me that while I can't eat like its going out of style, I also have to remember to eat.

I keep good food in the house now - BONUS. So mid way through my Saturday when I'm running around cleaning like a fiend, I need to remind myself to STOP and eat. Even just some carrots or an apple.

I don't need a 4 course lunch - but I do need A lunch!

So today I was better.... I had my cereal for breakfast, and had carrots and apples throughout the day. I didn't have lunch since again, I was so busy @ work, but I did have a half of a sandwich and half a soup (a cup vs a bowl I guess?) and that filled me nicely. Not stuffed, but satisfied.

I think this whole Weight Watchers thing has taught me (so far) to eat to keep me going and NOT because I'm bored or its something to do. And today, I caught myself reaching for the carrots and simultaneously taking a deep breath (that deep breath when you're full).... I promptly closed the lid and put them aside. Was I hungry? No. Was I bored? Heck yeah.

The trick is to not eat when you're bored.

I'm learning....slowly!

So we'll see....Wednesday AM is my next weigh-in. We'll see how it goes! :)

Day 10

First goal: lose 5% of my current body weight
Overall goal: lose 40 pounds
Current status: 4.4 pounds lost

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Holy Moley!!! I'm so excited. No, today isn't an official weigh-in date, but I got on the scale for fun (like I do every day - just to torture myself) and I lost another 2.4 pounds since Wednesday!!! OMG SO HAPPY!!!

That means I'm just .6 pounds from the weight I never want to be again, and I'm .7 pounds away from the weight I never want to go OVER again!!!

I have 4 days to stay where I am PLUS loose that extra .7 pounds! Here's my mini-goal for this week....can I make it?

HECK YEAH!!!